I haven't posted in a while. I am excited and completely worn out. I just got done with one of the most wearing weeks i can remember in which i missed 2 days of work, Spent time with my wife in the emergency room, started school and my car broke down.
However, despite the set backs i am praising a God who is divine and extremely excited for what this semester hold. I am already starting my work in Photography and looking forward to finding my place in the print world. I am going to explore a new graphic style of art and mix it with the age old style of Japanese Prints.
So break has come and the Holidays are passing. There is something about the holidays that makes you think about your past allot. A mixture of tradition and seeing people you haven't seen in years. It gives you a chance to really examine where we have come from.
For christmas i bought a new drawing Tablet, and it is my new goal to force myself to learn and grow in this art of drawing by extending out to digital painting and conceptual art and design. This is something that i have always admired and wanted to do. If there was one thing that i learned this semester it is that its never to late to start learning. I also understand that this would be a great skill to have and could open up many career options for me in the future.
I have decided i am going to start recreating concept art for a Story that Myself and many of my friends had started writing years ago. This gives me an opportunity to revisit something from my past while growing a new skill.
This is the first of my series i will be creating...
We are getting so close... i can start to feel the relief... I have finished all of my final projects... now i just have to present them. Here is a link to it:
This was really about me looking forward and understanding what this whole "Art" thing means to me. Through the process of creating this drawing and then watching it play back... its one of the first times i really really felt comfortable with myself as an "Artist."
It made me start to think about what this whole idea of "Purpose" really is. This, along with an ongoing conversation i have been having with one of my coworkers really made me think about what people live for. I feel like no matter what your calling is, be it large or small, personal or public, you need to full on embrace what you are doing. You are never going to be fulfilled doing something you hate, and you are never going to be happy doing what you love half way. This is something i have really come to understand over the last year of work and witnessing different peoples lives over the last year.
So embrace life.... Every Moment of it. We are here to live to the fullest and change those around us. Don't miss out on that chasing what is "Right."
So here i am... its 1am and i am not sleeping. Not really hard to believe but true nontheless... I am conflicted. I feel like i know what i need to do, like i know where i need to go, yet i constantly question if i have done enough to get me there. Am i really good enough to do this thing that i feel like i am being called to do? I look around, at some of those who have gone before and i am encouraged. I feel like i could easily surpass them in this field, however i feel like i have not pushed myself far enough. I have been successful but it has come so easily. Is it really meant to be this natural? Am i really meant to have this clear of a vision on what i should be doing?
Sometimes i feel that clarity only confuses things more. Anyway, heres to a new start. Something i have to keep to, for myself and my commitment to my work my wife and my God. I feel like a start things and never finish. I feel like this has all just happened, just been given to me, like someone has gone before me paving the way. I suppose that is true. He has provided for me in a real and visible way. But now i have to hold up my end of the bargain. I have to invest in this like i have never invested before. I have to find something that will continue to provide but allow me to develop at the level i need to. I trust he will provide that. I just have to find the way...
